year of 2010.

2010 is became more aggressive and reluctant to my character. I conceived hatredness and has been devastated of someone whose became part of my being wonderful person lately. Has been lied on the bed drunk and got puffy eyes on the next day. I even left and forgot on where did i put the pride that i have before. I didn't even use my brain to think but my heart instead. I did only listen on my heart beat and not on my instinct. I forgot everything that is strong on me. He became my strength. I myself became weak for i let him be my strength. "He's not my world.", says by my mouth. "He's not that important to me. I can live 'well' without him.", according to my mind. Hence, above of them, the main system of my body says, "i'm still bleeding. it hurts. And became more wounded because my mind refuses to give suggestions on how will i able to heal this wound. i still longing for him yet 90% of this body refuses for my acceptance of his did.", my heart said. As time passed by, i did nothing of those reactions of my system. I just simply walk and walk in the aisle of nowhere. I pray to God for his guidance for i know he is always there. I don't know when will this tunnel ends. But everything has its end. Everyday is plain and happens as it is. Thank you 2010 for the challenge you gave. I might still love him but yet what my mouth have been said and my mind have been suggest is correct. And yes. I will just continue my life that as if nothings happen. But what happen will always be lesson on my whole system.

Aside from the hurts, pains and heartaches that you gave, i still love you 2010 for somehow you made me happy and blessed with my healthy veins and tissues (family and friends). In advance, WELCOME BLESSED YEAR OF 2011 !!!